Category Archives: Mental Health

The Bipolar Puppet Fight Song – World Bipolar Day

Every year on March 30th, the mental health community comes together to observe World Bipolar Day. This is a special time for us, because it gives us the opportunity to connect with friends, raise awareness, and normalize things we deal with on a daily basis. While little has felt “normal” as of late, we need…

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Back to Consensus Reality

I got settled into my new room at the mental facility where I had just arrived. This was my second mental facility within a month.  This time, my euphoria had been completely stripped away. I no longer believed a spirit was coming to save me.  I no longer believed I was there to save other…

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  • Michelle WhiteDecember 20, 2019 - 1:56 pm

    You are beautiful, strong, and amazing. I believe in you. ReplyCancel

    • adminDecember 20, 2019 - 2:04 pm

      Thank you Michelle! I am extremely grateful for your support. Thank you for reading.ReplyCancel

My Mental Mordor & The One Ring

I was sitting in a locked facility, waiting for the staff to come and take away my things. I had been through this process a month ago, and I was prepared for what was about to come. My purse had very little in it at this point. After throwing several of my items in a…

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My Body Image Battle

Last week, the Mental Health Community focused on Body Image for Mental Health. This was not the next blog entry I had planned to share, but it seems appropriate given the circumstances. Honestly, I needed a break from talking about my psychosis anyway. I’ll get back to it next time. According to others, I’m an…

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The Recipe for my Psychosis

Before I start this blog, I want to clearly state that I do not subscribe to any religion or firm belief structure. As I write about my experiences, I focus on what my perception of the events were at the time. I fully recognize that my perception may have been influenced by my past, bipolar…

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  • RochelleJune 11, 2020 - 10:35 pm

    I haven’t finished this post yet, but I’ve read the previous two and I love your writing style and as someone who is “BP” and does psychic readings, I’m intrigued. I feel you so far. ReplyCancel

    • adminSeptember 2, 2020 - 2:31 pm

      Thank you so much for reading. I appreciate it!ReplyCancel

My Spirit Boyfriend

  I fell in love with a spirit. At least, I developed feelings for something I perceived as a spirit. Those of you who don’t believe in such things, may explain my haunting tale as a Bipolar manifestation. I am actually okay with that assumption. Most of the time it’s easier for me to think…

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  • Rebecca PageFebruary 21, 2019 - 2:58 am

    I love reading your blog! I have never had an experience like this but have heard of such things.. I am very interested in psychology and am dying to know more about what causes bipolar and how to identify it. Is this experience part of that or is it a seperate spiritual gift you have? Thank you for sharing. ReplyCancel

    • AnginetFebruary 26, 2019 - 12:32 am

      Thank you so much for reading. Typically people who have Bipolar are born with the predisposition. The onset of illness is often triggered by stress.  I believe I have had Bipolar my entire life but it wasn’t until I had a psychotic break that I was diagnosed.  Once I accepted the diagnosis, a lot about my life made sense.  As far as the spiritual gifts go, I have no way of knowing if any of them are real or if it’s all Bipolar related. The blog entries I will be doing in the future will address more on that.ReplyCancel

  • Sarah ElleAugust 26, 2019 - 1:04 pm

    Fascinating. Very glad to hear another person with bipolar talk about hypersexuality! “Sex became all I could think about and my want when I get in this mind set, isn’t flowers and romance. It can be far more dangerous without parameters.” I relate to this so much & have engaged in lots of risky, reckless sex when manic. Great post x ReplyCancel

    • adminAugust 27, 2019 - 12:41 pm

      Thank you so much Sarah! There is a real need for people to understand hypersexulaity and not shy away from the topic. This taboo topic can lead to so many issues for people with and without mental illness. It needs to be further understood.ReplyCancel

Psychic, Bipolar or Both?

My conflicting personal hang-ups have made it difficult for me to tell the next part of my story. From the title of this blog, you are clued into what is coming next. My guess is there will be three types of responses on the posts to come… 1. “This is fascinating. I don’t have the…

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  • JohnFebruary 6, 2019 - 4:26 am

    I can’t wait to your your next post! I’m SO happy you are sharing your story with the world!❤ReplyCancel

Losing My Emotional Support Dog

In June of 2016 I lost my most faithful companion. My dog, Chewbacca. Chewbacca had been my trusty sidekick for over a decade and during that time, unbeknownst to me, he became more than my pet. He became my emotional support dog. Chewbacca was brought into the family around the same time as my youngest…

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  • Whitney FrazierMay 30, 2019 - 5:29 pm

    Hey. I was pointed this way from your friend Alyssa. I have bipolar II and just started reading your blog (I have one of my own). So far I’ve read you post about body image and this one, and I relate so much to both. I had a dog that was so special to me that I had to euthanize in 2017 and I feel like you really get what it was like. Just wanted to drop a line and say I love your honesty and openness. <3ReplyCancel

    • adminJune 16, 2019 - 2:07 pm

      Thank you so much for reading and for your reply. I am excited to get to know you better.ReplyCancel

  • Ryan MoultonAugust 23, 2019 - 8:08 am

    I am so sorry for your loss. Such an event can throw your emotions into a tailspin and take your mental health right with it. I have been with my emotional support dog for over 15 years and I can’t imagine my life without her. When the time comes, I don’t know if I’ll be able to handle it. 
    I hope you’re getting better one day at a time. 
    Best of luck 💚ReplyCancel

    • adminAugust 23, 2019 - 1:01 pm

      Thank you so very much for your comment. It has taken a lot of healing. I appreciate your support and understanding. ♥️ReplyCancel

Opening Pandorini’s Mental Case

  Everything starts somewhere and this is where my storytelling begins… Many of you have probably wondered where I disappeared to over the past year and a half. Before this span, I was faithful about blogging every photo shoot, every wedding and every adventure. Then suddenly, silence… Rest assured, I have been working. Quite hard…

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  • AngelaSeptember 12, 2018 - 4:20 am

    This is absolutely a beautiful and brave thing you are doing! Educating us and showing us how it feels on the inside. Even though we may not have had the struggles you have had there is something about it that resignates with all of us. 
    This has been and will be a long journey and I’m proud of you for sharing it with the worldReplyCancel

  • KrissieSeptember 12, 2018 - 10:37 pm

    Thank you for sharing. I wish for you peace, happiness, and your hearts desire. ReplyCancel